Come here go away

Come here, go away. Come here, go away. Come on....comeoncomeoncomeoncomeon.......please....pleasepleaseplease....
I thought you said you ...I did. I heard you say and then I said and you said so I thought and then-
Oh.
But- no, I guess you said...and then I heard but  I said that we-
Then you...and me, we-
But you said-
I heard...I thought you meant, I mean, how could I not if that's what we did and you said and I thought and I said because we...and we both-
No, we did. We did, I know we did. I did, you mean to say you-
Oh.
oh.
Ok.
Ok, ok....I thought. I believed, I mean, that this- that we'd, said, believed...I thought...
Come here.
Go away.
Please.
Stay.
I....

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